I got back from AX, saw a Twitter, found out my best friend and RP partner of over a decade died suddenly of 'unknown causes'.
I don't cry often. Really, I don't.
Well, I'm bawling now.
The feeling of agonizing surreality continues. I should be inspired to draw out some angsty pieces. But all I want to do is go online and complain to her about my sadness, since that's my habit. Well, that can't happen now, obviously. She no longer exists.
And I have all those thousands and thousands of pages we RPed, and all our characters...am I just supposed to let them die with her?
But if I roleplay them too, it won't really be her playing them. But I can't just forget about then either.
Christ. What am I supposed to do?

PS the rest of dA knows her as
I know her as Angel.
Goddamn. Life sucks. Death sucks more.